7th november

pagi pagi da ikot mama pgy cari baju krje :) ohyeahhh , nsb baek ade and it suits fr me , ngeeee . blk ruma trus try try and heee , try suma bnde , bole bole la :) nt too tight or cm longgar sgt . cm nrmal , heee . tgh fkir , krje nnti msti kne dok ruma wan , yela , lagi dekat , jln kaki je . so cm i hve to brng byk brg kt sni bwk pgy ruma wan . ini yg cm tk suka ni . haiyeee , wht if nk kluar ke kn ? msti kne bwk jgk bju nk pgy kluar . hum , bab bab bwk brg ni mls nk pkir lgi . buat semak fkiran je . now , ayah buat the sme mstake again . dye bkin mslh lgi to his own fmily . aku da pnt , i am super duper tired of listening abt him frm mama . kang if ckp mls nk dgr , kcik plak hati mama . nk tknk kne dgr jgk evnthough aku thu ayah da ttup lubang yg lme tpi i knw one day ayah akn gali blk lubang tu . hmm , and now he did . i jst dnt undrstand why ? kaktin cte cte byk byk psl ayah , my tears fell down sddnly . badmood hbis siang td . lagi lagi ble trbace msg mama dgn ucu , shit , the words strts frm D lagi buat aku cm fuck , nk nangis gyla mati :'( 

dulu only one person je yg thu abt ths , bt now , im gnna keep it only to myself how i feels . ya allah , tabah kn hati ku , hati mama and hati adik bradik ku :') kuat kn mama dlm hal mcm ni . aku tknk tgk mama pening pening , muntah muntah , suffering dgn migren dye . i'll try to solve it as long as i can . nak bg nasihat pon cm da tkda guna , nk menangis mcm org mati pon tk guna , sme mistake pon dok buat brulang kali . hati tu da ttup , prasaan tu da tkda rse nye kot :/ eishhh , pening pening . aftr ths da tk tggl kt ruma , tk thu la apa jdi . eish eish , whtever it is , mls ar nk semak semak kn dgn mslh mslh mcm ni . da ckup lst year im suffering , trseksa hmpir hmpir nk PMR , mls ar nk cmtu lgi fr ths year . haihh 

kaki aku ni , dr smlm tk hlg hlg lagi sakit , kenguh dye . tah apa kne tah , nk kte kn urut , da urut da pon . sbiji mcm awl awl thun mse ade kawad , mcm ni la kaki aku . mne tk nye jln non stop mse nk cari krje tu . dduk ble maen bwling kejap , and mkn . aftr tht cntinue jalan jalan smpai ke mlm . haaa , time smbhyg mghrib tdi , nk sjud pon kne trun kn sblh kaki dlu . haiyo , da cm nnek tua yg tggl kt ruma wan tu da , haha . nnek tu gemok , trun tgge pon payah gyla , mcm tu la aku skrg , haha . tommorw skola :) dpt result , fr now , thu result eng je yg full . alhamdulillah , atleast aku thu fr now aku ade 1 A :)) hope ade la yg laen . hee , okay la , nk usha fs pulak . bye <3