it's even harder than i thought

i can not tell you how much it hurts , cause it's too much . even though you know it , i bet you just know it but you don't even understand any .. you're not in the situation where i am right now . your situation is much different than mine . to be honest , i don't feel like telling you every single problem i've faced but just that sometimes i couldn't take it by my own . i had to tell you every thing even though i know you would not understand any of it . but now , i guess , i should just .. pretend !